Fragments of My Memories

There'll be no sunlightt, if I lose you babehh

2012-01-19T20:46:00.001+08:00

The choreography for this video is soooo good. I've watched it more than 5 times by now, and I still find it amazing :)

Seriously? Again..?

2012-01-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

The movie was replaying on Astro again :D How nice if got 500 days of Autumn haha. I think loneliness can be both underrated and overrated though. But regardless, there's so much more to life. God wants so much more for us than to sit and mope around :)

And He can make our world so colourful, if we just let Him :)

Sadly, C'est la Vie.

2012-01-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

Please, please, pleaseeeeee, somebody just take me away.

I hate my holidays.

Pon

This is what I feel like right now.

Eating away like a pig at a corner, alone.

*sighs* I wanted to do something more interesting ya know, but I don't know why the days just flew by after camp. and now I'm stuck in the middle of nothing.

*sighs* enoughla stop feeling sorry for yourself.

Oh right, and Chinese New Year is coming. You know I'm really beginning to dread all festive seasons? Every year it's the same boring thing, or should I say boring ritual. Nothing changes cause well, people don't change.

I think I should stop posting 'feelings' on my blog, being a bit too transparent..?

But what the heck, that's what blogs are for right.

It didn't happen

2011-12-28T12:12:00.001+08:00

Today I don't feel like doing anything

2011-12-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

But on the contrary, today end up being a productive day.

This movie is actually pretty good! I'm still sadden by someone's supposed "death", I really hope that isn't the end of her/him. But yea, the movie was so nerve-wrecking nearing the end, the suspense was killing me! I was so nervous wondering what will happen next. Overall I would say it's a four star movie for me. I feel like it lost a bit of flavor during the build up to the climax.

I'm kinda excited that Christmas is coming, ironic since I've lost all interest and joy I've had for it before youth camp. Sometimes I forget what Christmas is truly about, the birth of the Son of God. The day isn't important because of the people we get to celebrate with, or the ongoing sales all girls will go crazy over. it was never about us.

Sometimes I forget what an awesome God He is. He never lets us down, He never disappoints and you know what, He even helps me confront the feelings I'm hiding. It's okay to not be okay, He made me realize that it's better to admit it than to build up a wall I'll regret later on. And funnily enough, it's better to be a crybaby than to pretend that I don't care.

I'm gonna have a wonderful Christmas, and it wouldn't matter where or with whom I celebrate it with.

p.s. I love my blog, it's like a friend I can go to to vent.

"You loved.. You loved, a people undeserving."

Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness

2011-11-15T10:08:00.001+08:00

Cause I know You gave, the world Your only Son for us to know Your name, to live within the Saviours love and He took my place, knowing He’d be crucified and You loved.. You loved, a people undeserving.

Thank You :)

It is in you, to lay down fears that hold.

2011-11-12T21:04:00.001+08:00

Hello my dead blog. It's been a long time, but I'm finally back :)

Whaddya know, it's been exactly a month since I last blogged. Well, exam's finally overr. I thought the day would never come. It had been a long and torturous 3 weeks (including study leave), and FREEDOM IS FINALLY MINE. Well, sort of. I can't say I'm free from all responsibilities and my only job now is to sleep. Anyways, I'm really glad that the holidays are here and I will hopefully, be graduating march next year :) (which reminds me I haven't pay the fees for graduation yet). But to be honest, I feel so tired now that all I want is a real holiday, away from everything ._. I can see it now, the beaches in Mauritius with the waves crashing in, waters so clear you can see your toes, and the wind, so strong yet calms and soothes your soul.

I might have exaggerated a little with the wind soothing my soul, but honestly one of the things I like about beaches is the wind. The strong sea breeze feels as though it can blow away all your troubles and worries, making you feel serene and at peace. I think I can sit by the sea for hours, and I wouldn't even mind doing it alone.

God, can I be away? :/

It is indeed a time to not feel burdened.

p.s. Dear bloggie, I'll definitely be writing more often :)

Playing in my head the whole day

2011-10-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

And when it rains
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything

You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole
And you'll sleep 'til May and you'll say
That you don't want to see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming
Oh, oh, I need the ending
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

I have so so so so soo much to learn. Where will You start?

It's taken so long to finally see that Your love is worth the best.

2011-10-01T21:08:00.001+08:00

Life can be so crappy sometimes and its made worse when there don't seem to be anyone you can talk to. Well, actually, I should be glad already when people don't make it worse. These few days/weeks I don't know, I've been let down again and again by different individuals when all I was looking for was a little bit of comfort. It's becoming quite the usual to get the opposite. Is it so bad to ask for some understanding? Is it so bad to rant... is it so bad to complain once in a while..

"Why must they always think the worse of me :( Am I really that bad of a person?" This question has bothered me several times already, and I've felt even more burdened because of these people. Because of them, I've made a mental note to myself to be strong and rant to God instead.

It's quite silly. I've always wanted someone who will understand what I'm going through, what I'm feeling and be accepting of me the entire time, never-judging, when I've had You by my side for so long.

One thing these series of unfortunate events have taught me is no one in this entire universe can ever take Your place.

I've always loved this song since the first day I've heard it, and I didn't even know what the lyrics really meant.

God, take away all these bitterness and help me believe in love, in Your love.

Turn up from the down

2011-10-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

"We cannot abandon life because of its storm. The strongest trees are not found sheltered in the safety of the forest, rather they are out in the open spaces- bent and twisted by winds of all seasons. God provide deep roots when there are wide-spreading branches."

Dark night of the soul.

2011-09-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

I don't know what motivated it, boredom or plain curiosity, I just couldn't help myself. And then I hear this voice telling me, "If you keep doing this to yourself, you'll never be happy". That's the thing. What if I don't want to be happy? What if I just want to be alone?

"But nobody wants to be alone.."

And after going there, I felt a little emotional again. I asked myself why do I care so much, but really, I couldn't find an answer. And then, another wave of doubt come crashing in on me. Trying to pull me deeper and deeper into the sea, further and further away from shore, from you.

"Let it go."

I'm trying, I really am. But it feels like every time I'm far away from You, nothing he do ever seems good enough.

Where are You?

p.s. I know this is unfair to you.

Fly........away.

2011-09-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

Something feels so empty, actually, I feel empty. The sounds of thunder make me feel like going under the rain, in hope that it will make me feel alive again, or wake me up. "You are suppose to be helping people", but why? I need help myself.. who is gonna help me?

Sometimes, I feel like I've lost track of what I'm living for. That only the bright morning star can point me in the right direction.

Cut me some slack, I am after all, only human. I am allowed to be sad, to be frustrated and to complain once in a while. I'm no God.

Live for Him, live for yourself.

Nightmares haunt me in every single dream.

2011-09-17T09:59:00.001+08:00

My last post was more than half a month ago -.-"" This blogging business is really going downhill. Had been really busy with assignments and tests again :/ Seems like I've been using this phrase a lot lately, and I really do think its due to my poor time management..or lack of discipline and motivation. I can't wait for this year to be over! I'll be going deeper into the field of my choice and I can't wait to experience life out there! There's so many places to go, so many new people and new faces to meet. Going overseas have long been overdue, I guess I won't be going to HELP after all. I think I shouldn't have applied in the first place, don't know what I was thinking wanting to be stuck here.

I guess that's the problem, sometimes we just don't know what we want and we can't decide on what to do next, feeling helpless and alone, when we aren't. And apparently I can't act on how I feel even when I feel that things around me are troublesome and tiring.

God, You be the polaris I need :(

p.s. and I realize I'm still far from being who You want me to be. You've made life so much easier for me already, and yet all I want to do is quit.

I am in the mood for..

2011-08-31T14:01:00.005+08:00

500 days of summer.

I really ought to get the CD =.=

Other than that, I'm missing you a little too :/

And yes, I am procrastinating.

Man.. the weather looks so good for a stroll in the park. Faster rain so that I can find an excuse to go sleep ._.

Owh am so glad you intro-ed me this song :D

Current obssession

I love the way you love like no other

It's got nothing to do with anything that I do
Hold me, pull me just a little bit closer
I don't want to lose this moment
Your love has covered me
And now I can't get over You.

p.s. I hope you find some nice seashells baby :D

p.s.s I kinda like the random-ness of this post. Might have more of this in the future so that my blog won't look so dead.

Suppresion doesn't work.

2011-08-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

One of the defense mechanisms theorize by Sigmund Freud is called 'Repression'. Repression acts to keep information out of conscious awareness. Under repression, there's the commonly heard 'Suppression', where we consciously force the unwanted information out of our awareness. Repression or Suppression, neither works well. It'll come back to haunt you sooner or later. After many trials of Suppression, I've come to a conclusion that it only makes you feel ten times worse than before.

"Time to face your fears"

You know my heart is heavy, and the hurt is deep

2011-08-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

It's hard not to judge sometimes. I guess when you realize that you're being judged, that people aren't exactly all sugar and spice with you, that you start questioning them as well. Is it right to judge and be unaccepting of them, or do you just change yourselves to please them? Because you don't want to displease the other, you do whatever they want you to do, you agree with them even when deep down you actually don't, and/or you change your own personality to suit the other person's liking. I think the answer's obvious.

This picture's worth more than a thousand words.

Stop bringing yourself down to their level and start living more like YOU. Being a pushover is no fun, you're letting people run your life. Why should a person change to meet the needs of others or to please others? Every single person on this planet has a unique mind, body and soul of his or her own. Its foolish to change ourselves to be a copy of another person, I guess it all boils down to self-worth and self-identity. I'm glad I know mine, an identity in Christ! I'm worth so much to Him that He's willing to sacrifice His life for mine.

Do you know how much you're worth?

500 Days of Summer..again.

2011-08-16T14:55:00.004+08:00

Everytime I watch 500 days of summer I feel like blogging. This time, QUOTES!

Author's Note: The following is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental. Especially you Jenny Beckman. Bitch.

Rachel Hansen: Look, I know you think she was the one, but I don't. Now, I think you're just remembering the good stuff. Next time you look back, I, uh, I really think you should look again.

Tom: Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine. I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency.
Summer: I know.
Tom: I need to know that you're not gonna wake up in the morning and feel differently.
Summer: And I can't give you that. Nobody can.

Tom: Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?

Tom: What happened? Why - why didn't they work out?
Summer: What always happens. Life.

And my favourite,

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom: Knew what?

Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

2011-08-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

My blog is so dead already, and its only week 3. can't really blame Monash for this, I've just been too lazy and uninspired by anything to blog. and I'm writing this half-awake (funny time to be inspired), think it was cause of The Afters.

All that I need, You are so beautiful, beautiful.

Ah.. and yet I'm still so awed by this song.

Life can be very funny sometimes. For starters I'd never imagined I did be where I am, or even who I am today, 2 years ago. Slowly but surely, He's changing me. There is so much to be thankful for I don't even know where to start. and then there's the whole everything-seem-so-dynamic kinda thing, now it's black then it's white sometimes it's grey, makes your head go all dizzy and confused. Who said love is easy?

p.s. It seems I've taken 2 days just to write this post

p.s.s and I still don't know what I'm trying to blog about

p.s.s.s don't we all wish we're a lil bit more talented or a lil bit more intelligent sometimes

Mercy reaching to save me.

2011-07-28T21:29:00.001+08:00

Don’t know how it is You looked at me

And saw the person that I could be

Awakening my heart

Breaking through the dark

Suddenly Your grace....

Like sunlight burning at midnight

Making my life something so

Beautiful, beautiful

Mercy reaching to save me

All that I need

You are so

Beautiful, beautiful

I have come undone

But I have just begun

Changing by Your grace

Feel so tired, then I realize this emptiness only You can fill. You put me in places I find difficult to be. I question myself time and again if I'm in the right place. I don't understand what You have in store for me, what if all I want is a simple life with no responsibilities?

No one is perfect. So just be yourself. But what if being yourself isn't good enough?

I have to admit, my faith is lacking when its one of my best gifts.. What happened? I'm suppose to bring the lost to You, but I feel lost myself.. What happened? I feel broken, when You've made me whole.. What happened?

Romans 1:16-17

16 I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile. 17 For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: "The righteous will live by faith." [NIV]

p.s. Yeah..You know what You're doing.

Exhausted.

2011-07-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

Come and make my heart Your home.

2011-07-12T20:45:00.001+08:00

I always end up taking pictures whenever I'm in Perak. I guess it's cause things there are always changing and growing, that's why I find them so interesting.

Odd-looking flower. Strange, but pretty.

Grandpa has got a house of swallows.

Flowers in the shaped of stars! Don't see that everyday :)

Looks like hair.

Corn hair! haha.

Pretty lil butterfly~

Since we can't physically touch the stars or pluck em down, maybe we can use the flower as a substitute? :D hehe. Owh this looks prettier in full size btw.

On another note, results is out! God is really awesome :) Finally, I've achieved it at least once! :D. it can't get any better than this :)). Hopefully next semester will be as good!

p.s. search me through and through

And He shall reign Forever.

2011-07-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

I'm waiting for the day where I'll be Home with You.
I'm waiting for the day of Your return.
I'm waiting for You :)

How great You are, how small I am

How awesome is Your mighty hand

And I am captured by the wonder of it all

And I will offer all my praise with all my heart for all my days

p.s. and you wonder who's supposed to be forgiving who.

And again..

2011-06-27T13:01:00.002+08:00

Watched 500 days of summer for like the 3rd or the 4th time. my gosh, how can a movie trigger so many different emotions at once! I guess because it's a realistic take on love, that's why its a bit depressing. I think I should be more like Summer. every time I try to please other people, I lose a little bit of myself in the process. so tired of forcing myself to like something I actually don't.

Dear Father, I'm feeling a little lost.

Standing in the eyes of the world.

2011-06-21T01:30:00.000+08:00

Feel like blogging tonight, feel like talking about random and nonsensical stuff. hmm a lot of feelings tonight. Right now I feel like I wanna be where the guy is.

It feels like you're at the top of the world, and you can see everything clearly beneath you. There's nothing in the way, nothing obstructing your sight, and everything is laid out, right in front of you.

And the peace that comes with it, somehow it feels incredible to be at that spot. BUT then, He said that peace comes with Him, so wherever we are, there really is no reason NOT to feel it.

I know all that, but somehow, I still wanna be there and I'm not sure why. I've always imagined myself, feeling at peace only when I'm far away from here. Not only because I'll be at a place where no one knows me, but most importantly because I can truly be alone there.

A place where you can truly be alone, and people won't think that you're weird for wanting to be alone. In other words, a place where you won't be judged. And a place where you can leave all responsibilities behind? sounds like I'm running away..

Hmm, but you know what, I think if I was alone there, I would be missing you la. that don't sound or feel very fun.

And running away is not an option.

p.s. not that I was planning to run away also la. i think.

He takes all the shattered ones, to the place we belong.

2011-06-19T18:50:00.032+08:00

Rock the night awayy!

I'm getting really.. obsessed? with all these Rockys. I know I've got a really bad habit. When I like something, I'll keep exposing myself to that something, like Rocky over here. and then after a while like a few days or weeks or so, I get bored of it and then end up not liking it one bit ._. But I still like Rocky la surprisingly this 'addiction' or fetish lasted longer than others.

❤

Thankfully this bad habit doesn't apply for humans la =>

I think.

Haha kidding x)

1 Corinthians 13: 4-8a

I like this verse :D

"Fall into your sunlight,

The future's open wide beyond believing"

Shattered - Trading Yesterday

The sky is crying

2011-06-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Exam's over! Don't do this to yourself.

This life is hard.

Lord You are Good and Your mercy endureth Forever

2011-06-12T18:24:00.004+08:00

Got something in mind to post, but don't have time to writee. soo, I shall leave it till after exam :D. In the meantime, brushing off the spiders and cobwebs with pictures :)

Grow up. Soul ties are scary.

Ain't this one sad puppy! But so cutteeeee <3

LOLOL. I literally LOL-ed when I saw this. Reminds you of anyone?

"Search me through and through,
Till my heart becomes a home for You"

Till my heart becomes a home for You

Here I am, surrendering.

2011-05-30T00:57:00.012+08:00

I had been relying on my own strength. No wonder there's a feeling like I'll fallen short, like something is lacking. You got these knowledge in your head, you can justify your actions, your beliefs, you know what's good for you, but how come you're not practicing it? Humans. It's dangerous to be led by the heart and sometimes, ego.

Ah, and I've also realized that, some things you just can't deny, no matter how hard you try to push it aside. Inevitable. that might be the word for it. Oh what a dangerous feeling.

"Cause it's us against the world,
You and me against them all,
If you listen to these words,
Know that we are standing tall.
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall.
Cause it's us against the world tonight."

So I'll embrace it, whatever the consequence may be.

How many times will it take for me to get it right?

2011-05-23T11:38:00.009+08:00

I've always wanted to blog about this movie. I liked it so much that I watched it twice haha. 500 days of summer is not your typical love story. Sadly, it gives a more realistic perspective about love that you don't usually see on TV. Happy, fairytale endings that is so often portrayed on TV, don't happen often or should I say don't happen at all, in the real world. (Note: the word "often" indicates that I'm not being pessimistic).

Zoey Deschanel's character in the movie, to me, was a bit self-centered at times. Remembering the scene in the park, when the guy asked her why she still danced with him when she already had someone else, and she answered 'because I want to'. That was a bit selfish, she's giving the guy hope when there really is none.

But then what she said later to the guy was even more, how should I put it.... epic?

Tom: You don't want to be named as anybody's girlfriend, and now you're someone's wife?

Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew.

Tom: Knew what?

Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Ouch. okay, it seems like I'm making Zoey the bad guy in the movie here. But truth is, the guy should have saw it coming. Summer explicitly told him that she didn't believe in love and that she's not looking for a relationship, but he continued to build up a fantasy about their relationship. which blinded him from the truth.

All in all, the movie taught me one thing about love, something that I've already knew long ago, but was again reinforced by it.

Stupid dreams.

2011-05-21T09:15:00.005+08:00

Have you ever had dreams so bad that when you wake up, you still can't stop thinking about them? I hate those kind of dreams. What's worse is that they seem so real and it could happen in reality, that I question myself whether it WAS real. I literally have to tell myself that it isn't real. but even in the dream, I could feel the hurt.

Thank God that it's just a dream though.

p.s. 而自遇見你　惡夢就變美

p.p.s coincidentally it fits with the song.

Search me through and through, till my heart becomes a home for You.

2011-05-18T21:38:00.005+08:00

I found an interesting place today. Honestly, sometimes I look at all these wonderful places, I can't help but wish I can be there. but, life is not always about what we want. As we grow older, the amount of responsibilities we have grow as well. that's just how the circle of life is. I wouldn't want to be going on trips all the time anyways. I think I can appreciate the beauty of these wonderful places more when it's not always at reach ..........nah. A breathtaking view will still be breathtaking no matter how many times you look at it.

Salar de Uyuni in Bolivia, South America, is a place people don’t just visit. Rather, they inhale its vastness and colours with every fibre of their being. Salar de Uyuni is a place of superlatives – the world’s largest salt flat, world’s biggest reserve of lithium, the best place on Earth to callibrate satellites – in short: a visual miracle and mirror to the sky.

And I always save the best for last.

Surrounded by the sunset

p.s. 我愛過的多數最終都會傷我

Please see and believe again

2011-05-09T13:39:00.004+08:00

Love. It's a strong word. A word that sometimes gives you butterflies and melts your heart. How can we define love? There are so many ways to express love and there are also many ways to describe it. But today, I learnt that love means not giving up hope on those we love. It's what keeps us going and persisting despite everything.

Its been so long and yet she continues to persevere, not giving up hope that he'll turn back one day. Selfless love? It would seem so. Admirable? Definitely. makes me feel guilty for not persevering like her, giving up whenever the storm comes.

p.s. and this time around, is it love that you crown?

Be strong.

2011-05-05T23:04:00.008+08:00

Why..why must it always be about them them them. What about me? Why must I always care? Why must it always be about the other people? What about me? I'm so tired of caring.. why must I always be the one giving..

It was then I realize, He was the one giving it all for us too.

Like an epiphany I realize I can do better too.

Thank You => I know I can always count on You.

p.s. someone once told me that relationships are not the most important thing. that there are other things as equally important as well. He's right :)

Built for the simple life

2011-05-03T21:06:00.003+08:00

I feel like dropping everything, leaving everything behind and be at these places, far far far away. how ah =<

But it's not about you want, it's about what He wants for you.

I think I've found what I was looking for.

2011-05-01T17:33:00.007+08:00

Can't believe it's been 10 days since I last blogged. With assignments and church, time flew by in a blink of an eye. Pretty soon it'll be exams and then semester break and then what do ya know, it's my last semester in Monash. But you know what, I'm not worried where I'll be after this. In fact, I'm really looking forward to it! Whether I'll still be in Monash or out of the country, it matters not because I think greater things have yet to come :)

Bet ya didn't know

I've always been a fan of image quotes stuff. scrolling through each posts, I wonder if these people really felt that way when they made them. majority of the stuff on image quotes portray heartbreaks, regrets, unrequited love and missing a loved one, stuff that everyone can relate to. I feel for this people. if we're not careful and end up taking things or people for granted, we might just end up like Taylor Swift in Back to December, wishing that we can turn back time. In other words, relationships are fragile and no one will ever stay long if they realize they can't get what they want from you.

hmm... okay that sounded really pessimistic haha.

p.s. the fear of uncertainty is stinging clear.

You changed everything.

2011-04-20T10:43:00.011+08:00

You came and took my place, You felt it all. You died, You gave Your life. For me, You felt it all.

Good Friday. Sometimes it feels like it should be called Sad Friday instead. Well yes its good for us, the day that He died on the cross to pay for OUR sins; even when we don't deserve it. but from His perspective, it was a death so cruel. Remembering "Passion of the Christ", I only got a glimpse of it. bits and pieces of the scene where He carried the cross, bearing the weight and the burden on His shoulders, with wounds and cuts all over His body. That 1 short scene was enough to bring me to tears, and its not even the crufixion part.

So what can I say, what can I do, but to offer this heart o God, completely to You.

Are you sick of me yet?

2011-04-17T21:33:00.003+08:00

I can't feel it, I can't see it. I can't explain it. I can't understand it. It drives me crazy. if I can't explain it, does that mean that its not real? After all, if you can't quantify something, it could mean that it don't exist.

I like to be sure of things. I never liked having doubts about something. Its just this nagging feeling that you gotta know. They say its obvious, but I say I'm too afraid to try if I'm not all sure. What I know is fire and ice don't go together. They neutralize each other and leave nothing behind. Its not like what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. though I'm not saying that this is what I want to be caught up in as well.

What I really want is to be like the star and the moon. forever and ever.

晴天

2011-04-10T20:58:00.017+08:00

When I'm down, I tend to think of you. because it always seem like you're the only one who would understand. it's like you would feel what I'm feeling, and somehow that always made me feel better, made me feel like I'm not alone. but seasons changed. and you're gone.

Anyways. this is a really really nice video :). MUST WATCH!

Love looked so simple here :)

Coming on two knees, with more than two needs
Finding that it's all too easy
To be helped and found

Inevitable

2011-04-05T01:10:00.007+08:00

because,

fine. i'm cutting it short.

Where words fail, music speaks.

2011-03-26T14:09:00.017+08:00

It's funny how some songs get to you after listening to a different version of it. Take for example, 'Just The Way You Are' by Bruno Mars. I didn't like the song at all the first time I listened to it. Like everyone I thought it was overplayed and boring. Then I listened to Jayeslee's version, and I was awestruck :P. The lyrics hit home and I was in love with the song and Bruno's version :D. It's great to have people who loves you just the way you are and not trying to change you to be who you're not. And the same goes for Bruno's 'Marry You', absolutely loveddd Glee's version!

Music expresses what words can't

and that is why I love music :)

p.s. why so tired? whyyy? Just hold on to hope.

I'm drenched in vanilla twilight

2011-02-24T14:54:00.013+08:00

All of em taken from prettythatway :)

So lurve this picturee! Flowers with the beautiful sun effect :)

p.s. Sometimes, its so bright it looked as if it was gonna explode into the night sky like fireworks, but then the next minute, it becomes so dim, so dim that darkness attempts to creep in again.

Love is an ocean wide

2011-02-14T01:34:00.003+08:00

followthatway really not bad eh!

Anyways this song suits the occasion :D

Video so cute la :) and she prettyyy. I know the song was out last year lol. and I've heard it last year too, but didn't occur to post it till I listened to it again on V-Day.

When love is a raging sea..

2011-02-06T18:03:00.015+08:00

Lately I've been into this website lovegivesmehope. Their caption: "stories that make you go 'awww'". True to a certain extent cause after a while, the stories seemed too good to be true. Some of my favourites below :)

I was coming back home after I had been far away for some time.

My best friend promised to wait for me at the train station. When I arrived, he stood there, soaking wet. He had missed his bus and had walked two hours in the pouring rain just to be there on time. His genuine LGMH.

Feb 7, 2011 06:30 PM by Ju, Germany - Love

Everyone always asked if me and my best friend were dating, but we always said no.

Finally we made a silly bet that whoever fell for the other first, owed the other $20 bucks. Two months later, on my birthday, he gave me twenty bucks saying: "Yes, I fell in love with you. Will you be mine?" His LGMH

Feb 7, 2011 07:30 PM by I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND - Love

Today my grandmother passed away, on her 87th birthday.

6 hours ago, the EMT's arrived and began to carry her out of the house to her stretcher. My grandfather fought her out of their hands, carried her to the stretcher himself, laid her down and kissed her goodbye one last time.

His love for her GMH

Feb 9, 2011 10:00 AM by Alexa L, Kansas City, KS - Love

And my favorite!

My little brother spontaneously began a small flower garden.

Every day, he would lovingly tend to the seeds.

When the flowers began to sprout, he looked up at the sky and whispered, "See, Lizzie? I told you they wouldn't be as beautiful as you!" Lizzie was an autistic girl in his Kindergarten class who died from severe medical issue

Feb 9, 2011 07:00 PM by Nikki - Love

Then everyday would be Valentine's Day :)

p.s. Feelings slip away but memories never will.

Guess what inspired this post.

2011-02-02T21:53:00.010+08:00

The sound of the rain is so soothing to the ears. These days whenever it's hot outside, I would wish for rain to come. But whenever I'm out, I would wish that it would stop raining. Yes, I know I'm hard to please :).

At times, I find myself attracted to the sound of rain. It makes me imagine myself, sitting at a small hut in an open field with the rain surrounding me. It's like you can't see anything, but the pouring rain. And you can't hear, feel or smell anything, but the rain. I love that feeling, that peaceful and calming feeling. Its like the rain blocks out everything, every worry, and every argument. It's gone, they, are gone. I don't hear the noise, the complains, and the hurtful words anymore.

I tried to find a picture to describe the setting, but I couldn't find any like that. I guess Google is not the answer to everything after all :P

I decided to end the post with these la. Since they look awesome :D

I don't know how the photographer managed to capture this shot.. or maybe it's photoshop-ed? Really don't know, but it looks very cool.

The rain look almost like marbles here.

I saved the best for last :). Why this picture and not the previous one? This one looks softer and gentler. Almost like its soothing, if you get what I mean :)

p.s. I'm in awe of Your creation.

p.s.s Happy chinese new year people :)

p.s.s.s I miss you.

Your Love Makes Me Sing

2011-01-29T22:10:00.016+08:00

Watched Green Hornet last Friday and the movie was................... stupid. Okla maybe not stupid stupid, but funny and ridiculous stupid. It's basically about 2 wannabe-superheroes (or criminals I don't know which one) trying to take down the bad guys in the neighbourhood and lower crime rates. Though it would seemed that in the process of doing so, they wreaked havoc in the city and endangered the lives of many innocent civilians, if not killed them. And the ending, well I'm not gonna spoil it for you la, but it was -.- too.

But overall, it was a pretty hilarious movie la. There were many scenes that cracked me up, and Kato's character was interesting. Don't really like Seth Rogen's character though, egoistic men are repulsive, plus his character was a bit of a brat :/ (poor Kato..). Anyways, no matter how interesting Jay Chou's character was in this movie, I still very much prefer his character in 'Secret' :) hehe here goes

So sweeett laaa but I don't think there was this scene in the movie haha.

It reads:

“Follow the notes upon a journey
At first sight marks one's destiny
Once the voyage comes to an end
Return lies within hasty key”

This movie was out 4 years ago haha! I can't believe it's been that long already...but I am still very much in love with it :D. Not just because it involves or revolves around a piano with music school setting, but the storyline was so sweet and touching. And not forgetting the countless awesome instrumental music in the movie. I still remember the first time I watched it, I was so captivated by the opening track, it sounds so mysterious it draws you in. I honestly think this would be my favourite Jay Chou movie EVER haha.

p.s.

The simple things in life are the ones i like best❤ and

You really are :)

Half of My Heart

2011-01-11T23:02:00.010+08:00

I realize I work with the sun. My ability to function in the early morning depends on how bright the sun is. I didn't realize that until recently but it does make sense though. A person's sleep cycle IS affected by the sun. This is because *opens Psychology textbook* it is believed that Melatonin, an excretion of the pineal hormone affects the cycle. Melatonin supposedly acts as a signal to our body systems, telling it whether it's day or night. Melatonin production is high at night which signals that it's time to sleep and its production is only inhibited or reduced by light exposure.

See. everything makes sense now right :D I usually don't mind the disappearance of the sun. I love dark and gloomy clouds, especially those indicating a storm is coming. but I really need the light la this week haha.

Owh so, what happens at night then eh?

I got replacement(s) for the sun :)

p.s. it doesn't revolves around you only.

Just the Way You Are

2011-01-06T19:29:00.010+08:00

So, 2010 has officially ended, and wow, it was truly an awesome year. Haha not to be dramatic or anything but I've never felt so happy about a year before. There were so many new experiences and I've truly lived and learnt from them. I guess You gave me the courage and the heart to want to live life. Because I no longer want to live in my own world and in my own shell. I want to live :). Hmm.. so what will the future hold? whatever it is, I hope people from the past and present will be in it as well =)

I never realized how awesome this song was until I watched Jayesslee's version on YouTube.

Depression, low self esteem, fear & insecurities are just some of the things that keep women from discovering just how amazing they truly are. ~J.S.

How true :D. For those people who haven't watch the video,

And for those who miss Bruno's version :)

Tbh, I think I like Bruno's version more haha. But, J.S. is still awesome :D

p.s. Glee has its own rendition of the song as well! But I don't like it as much as I like these two haha :)

Innocence

2011-01-06T12:36:00.014+08:00

-Taken from G9 blog-

These are the answers given by 4 to 8 year-old kids when a group of professional people posed this question ,'What does love mean?' to them. Enjoy!

'My grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'
Rebecca- age 8

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'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4

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'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissie - age 6

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Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.Terri - age 4

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'Love is when my mummy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7

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'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mummy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8

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'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

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'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'
Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

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Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.Noelle - age 7

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'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8

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'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4

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'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8

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And the final one --

Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.

The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbour, the little boy said,
'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

p.s. this blog's html is so messed up. must change skin this holiday ady!

I hate being sick.

2010-12-20T15:35:00.019+08:00

Title says it all. and it really does feel like I'm sick at the wrong time of the year. but I guess better now than during assignments and exams haha. I like to think that I have a pretty strong immune system though. I mean falling sick was only a result of not getting enough sleep (3-4 hours for 3 days) + not enough water (like only 500ml per day for 3 days?) + mild stress from given duties. and what I have now is just flu and a very sexy voice, no fever or any of that (although temperature was higher a few days ago). I'm sure the whole flu phase is coming to an end though. 4 days is more than enough =.=.

So far I have yet to accomplish some of the things in my to-do list (which was made up mentally in my mind after exam). but am looking forward to an even more fruitful year :)

That is one big Christmas tree. but that's just what it is. A tree with pretty lights on it, a decor and nothing more.

So let's not stray away from the true meaning of Christmas! Don't be a fool celebrating aimlessly for the presents and what not. Open up your heart to Jesus today :)

Talking to the moon.

2010-12-16T11:13:00.035+08:00

It feels like You are the ONLY one who understands me sometimes. (No surprise there. what creator wouldn't know its creation well?). Maybe that's why I sometimes long for sunsets far away. I was tired of having to explain myself.

And ironically enough, even if I do, people will still judge, some will still not get me. How I long for the day when I have someone besides You, who understands me inside out.

Camp was really fun :). I learned a lot and overall it was such a good experience!

Can you guess what theme we were going for?

It was supposed to be a cell girls only picture but nvm la :)

p.s. and yet sometimes it still hurts.

And I'm gone

2010-12-12T08:26:00.004+08:00

Youth camp here i comeee!!

Sometimes I don't know why I'm waiting.

2010-12-08T00:12:00.004+08:00

watever la.

I can't explain this kind of love.

2010-12-03T23:59:00.009+08:00

Got back my results yesterday. And oh the JOY. and to think I was so nervous and reluctant to check before. I contemplated for like an hour before I decided that if I don't find out what I got I wouldn't be able to sleep that night. So lo and behold I gathered up any ounce of courage I might have had at the time and logged in to the dreadful page. Scrolled down and TA-DA.

Awesome-ness. I was so overjoyed I spam-ed all the people that I was chatting with on MSN with "OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH" And then started thanking God non-stop. though a million thank yous wouldn't suffice for all the good things that He have given me.

He proved to me that I don't have to compromise Him or church for assignments and exams, because He'll be there every step of the way.

Mount Merapi's Eruptions

2010-11-25T23:39:00.011+08:00

Pictures below show the calamity happening in Indonesia. We should really be thankful Malaysia is a place safe from natural disasters.

For pictures' captions or more information on the disaster, click here.

p.s. The photographer's skill is really something.

p.s.s and I know I want to do more for You.

Typical asian parent.

2010-11-24T19:28:00.008+08:00

I'm starting to think maybe I should start writing down a list of all the things NOT to do when I become a parent myself.

I really need a Dreamcatcher.

2010-11-23T09:19:00.007+08:00

Anyone knows where I can get one? Cause I can't seem to stop dreaming and it shucks. Every morning I wake up feeling even more tired than when I had gone to sleep. and it doesn't help that they are ... rarely sweet dreams. Most of the time, my dreams are confusing, weird, and scary. from dreaming bout zombies, to friend being possessed, to..some people I don't really know.

I don't seriously think that this would work la. It looks more like some funky accessory than anything else =.=.

Maybe I should just use that chant from Grey's Anatomy.

"Bad dreams, bad dreams, go away,
Good dreams, good dreams, here to stay."

I know. this is stupid.

p.s. Suffocated.

Dreamcatcher

2010-11-16T11:40:00.019+08:00

Maggieeeeeee.

"Eww, why this weird looking lady keep staring at me with a black box?" A new addition to the family =D.

But, he looks as though he's gonna cry.

Here fat and pregnant kitty, kitty.

And this is my cue to leave her alone.

If you look carefully, the flowers are shaped like stars :)

Head of the family chicken =D

Should have adjusted the lighting on the camera better.

Yes, I was this bored.

p.s. so hard to take pictures of animals *STAY DOGGIE/KITTY/CHICKEN, STAY*

I'm like a bird.

2010-11-09T17:41:00.005+08:00

Ahh once again it is that time of the year. Finally exams are over and oh the joy, I can barely describe the joy I feel right now haha. A bit exaggerating I know but watever. I get to do whatever I like now =D. My top 2 holiday plans atm is church, reading, and exercise. Kinda had them on my mind even before the exams ended.

Maybe I should use this to-do list as well =D

p.s can't believe its over.

It lingers on but I wish for it to fade.

2010-11-01T19:47:00.005+08:00

If only he understands that.

p.s. It was a belated burfday present after all =D haha! ❤❤

Bright morning star

2010-10-27T09:30:00.047+08:00

Sometimes, you meet people that goes against your principles and values in life. Yes, they are nice people, but numerous times you just can't stand the way they behave. Will you then tell it to their face, that their behaviors are insensitive? or do you stop being friends with them? I think I prefer the former. but then again, even if I do encounter these kind of people, I probably won't say anything because,

I hate drama (it ruins the peace I hold on to)
Sometimes I just don't care enough about that person to even correct him/her
I don't value that person, cause I know have 10x far better friends (so whatever he/she does, though it hurts for a while, only makes me not want to care even more)
not brave or assertive enough to say anything (probably not this one though)

But then, I'm reminded of God's grace and how He forgave us, even when we don't deserve forgiveness. So even when people have wronged us, hurt us, and disappoint us, we still have to care, AND love them. Boy, is that hard! How do you love someone who is so flawed and has done so many wrongs? or in other words,

How did Jesus managed to STILL love us?

Undoubtedly, it is with overflowing passion, love, mercy and kindness.

something that I ought to learn from Him.

A fleeting moment

2010-10-25T10:15:00.010+08:00

Ahh and once again I've abandoned my blog. it's just so easy to push it aside, what with exams, assignments, church etc etc. pushing aside the blog is inconsequential, but pushing people, or your social life aside for assignments that never seem to end, sometimes you wonder if it's all really worth it. Monash life is hard sometimes but I thank God for the 3-4 months break at the end of the year =D. Perfect timing to rebuild any social life you once have had before the assignments kicked in haha.

Yes, I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY SUMMER BREAK. It feels like thinking about holidays is what keeps me motivated sometimes.

On another note, I really do seem to enjoy photography a lot. I knew I've always had an interest in photography, but I didn't really pursue it cause I figured it might just be a temporary thing. but it's a different story now =D

Chien, I think I haven't found what I'm looking for also haha.

It'll be a dream

2010-10-13T21:10:00.015+08:00

Some random pictures of the birthday XP

The oh-so-highly-talked-about-banana with my favourite box =)

Pictures below were taken using N95, the restaurant was a bit dark also =/

Can't seem to find the picture of the white one. But anyways this is awesome =D thank you =)

Well obvious I loved this, I picked it out myself. Sadly.

p.s. Birthdays don't make the day any special compared to other days, but friends and family do =)

To the OMEs ❤

2010-10-06T21:49:00.020+08:00

Specially dedicated to u girls! =D

Okay first of all, I can't say I didn't know you guys have something up your sleeves that day. From how Sun Mei keep on calling me to go eat "unagi" with her and keep on saying I MUST go (when I've never shared her passion for unagi), to how Ah Ma and May Ling keep asking me if I'm free for dinner, I already know la. you guys never been so 'gung ho' for a dinner wan =)

I'm sorry if you guys were expecting me to cry haha. But it really did touched my heart la what you guys did for me. You girls made me feel really really special that day =). My face might not show it (unfortunately), but even now everytime I look at the bears I still feel so happy wan =). So I'll cherish the bears and tuck them away someplace safe, because I know in the future everytime I look at them, it'll always put a smile on my face =D.

And u know wat! Eventhough we kena complain because we were being too noisy, it didn't ruin my mood at all haha. come to think of it eventhough that day wasn't exactly my birthday, it was still very special. I can't think of a better way to start off the day I officially turn 20 =)

My new ❤.

p.s. knowing u girls I didn't think it would end with the bananas actually XP (I really loveeee the box btw! and i like the banana also cause its ~~delicious~~ from u girls hehe.)

p.s.s I end up washing my hair TWICE on the same day but it was worth it la, free hair treatment? =D

p.s.s.s. next time don't want go Italiannies ady XP

It doesn't belong to you.

2010-09-27T00:46:00.010+08:00

Some pictures I forgot to post up from the Malacca trip with the OME's =)

sighs. 7 cakes for 7 lovely ladies.. but the problem is not all 7 cakes are lovely. Haha didn't managed to finish all of them la. It gets jelak-ing after a while.

Pictures from the soap shop!

This is the sweetest soap I've ever seen =)).

I really thought of buying them but then I started thinking. if I use the soap, it'll be gone in a few weeks its too pretty to be consumed like that! if I use as decor in the room, it'll collect dust. So in the end didn't buy any la lol.

On another note, MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!

Okla so I didn't really celebrate. didn't burn any lanterns or light small candles like i used to when I was a kid. I guess in a way I became more environmental-friendly huh?

My dad's customer gave him a box of 'Tai Thong' mooncakes. i think the box itself contributed to 50% of the product's price. but nevermind, since it's so pweettie I shall make an exception. I'll keep the box and let it accumulate dust after we're done with the mooncakes =D

This mooncake's called "Charcoal..mocha...milk..tea?"

I'm pretty sure the name contains all the 4 words.. just not sure in which order. anyways, the mooncake was AWESOME =D. it reminded me of milk tea with every bite. so I guess its brand is not famous for nothing after all haha.

p.s. The sun comes with the rain

Running on overdrive.

2010-09-22T17:53:00.012+08:00

Sort of. I've been sleeping past 2 a.m. these few days and it is ridiculous. why ridiculous because I could have spared myself all the unnecessary trouble if I were to stop jigsaw-ing online so much, stop checking on Facebook so much, stop watching tv so much.. u get the picture. Bottom line is I procrastinated too much. I honestly don't know why I was so "chillax" for my PSY2112 assignment. Could it be due to 1 Peter 5:7?

Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you

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Nah, for the first time in my uni life I think it's because I took the assignment too lightly haha. I sure hope I don't fall flat on my face when I get the paper back.

Now I'm so tempted to put a picture from Icanread. Okla maybe not this time.

p.s. is it possible to bring the sun without the rain?

We'll be a dream

2010-09-14T15:26:00.023+08:00

I ~~stole~~ took this picture from some fella's blog =) The sky looks so pwettyy ritee? If u say no, I'll smack you. Haha but seriously this is why I want a high-end camera! I knowla I prolly won't have the chance to take pictures in Paris or wat but only good cameras can capture the beauty of God's creation, even if its just an infinitesimal amount of it. But, for every breathtaking moment nothing is better than to be there, and to live in it.

You are Awesome.

2010-09-09T18:36:00.007+08:00

Dear Father,

You truly are an awesome God. When everything turned upside down in my life, You were the One who set it right again. All I can say is, even when the oceans rise and thunders roar, I'll do my best to soar with You above the storm =)

And though he's not happy, and though the enemies never cease fire, I will not bow.

Because You are worth it.

Thank You, God =D

Sing to me the song of the stars

2010-09-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

Mm how nice if best friends can sign this kind of contract =p

Nothing beats a tuned piano

2010-09-02T17:18:00.007+08:00

The ome group managed to go on a food trip to Malacca last Tuesday. 3 words to describe the trip, Fun, tasty and entertaining =D.

All pictures below are taken from the ome gang (2010). I ada cite so I'm not stealing =p

This window is filthy. I need to wash my car soon haha.

Nice sunrise =D or was it sunset..? ugh whatever it's still nice =D

The weather in Malacca is so hot -.-

HAHA Chien is posing like a gengster while Evie seems to be practicing kung-fu!

Owh the case of mistaken photographer haha. My bad for looking at evie's camera =p

This picture is here cause I like Cendol the most!

p.s. Favourite quote for today:

"For evil to flourish, all that is needed is for

good people to do nothing." Edmund Burke

Do more than exist.

2010-08-26T14:33:00.006+08:00

I was driving home the other day when i noticed this car in front me suddenly braked in the middle road. my immediate response of course was to look at what's blocking the way in front. it turns out that it was because there was an accident on the opposite lane.

=.=

Malaysians. are. so. busybody. sure the girl was quite pretty and looked distress but if you don't intend to help, don't bother looking.

On another note, i watched a pretty interesting video in my business lecture yesterday. Its really relevant to me considering that I'm blogging here when I should be doing my forever-never-ending assignments.

To ome girls ->the name of the person who made this video is LEV Yilmaz hahaha.

And its gone.

2010-08-23T21:51:00.013+08:00

There's gonna be 2 moons on the 27th of August! Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August. It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye. This will cultivate on Aug. 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles off earth. Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am.

So it'll look as though the earth has 2 moons! Not that I'm into astronomy or anything but this is gonna happen like only once in a gazillion years. . . . . . . Okay maybe not that long but the next time Mars comes this close is in 2287. so yeah I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be dead by then since the last time i checked i wasn't a vampire.

So how will the night sky look with two moons? Prolly something like this. . .
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Looks quite ordinary to me LOL but i'm sure if i were to see it in reality, i would go "woahh".

but not so fast though. I found this site claiming that it's NOT gonna happen.

Seven years ago, on August 27, 2003, the oscillating orbits of Mars and Earth did, in fact, bring the two planets closer together than at any other time during the past 50,000 years. And though Mars never actually appeared as "large as the full moon to the naked eye"— it was indeed, for a few special days in 2003, among the brightest objects in the night sky.
-http://urbanlegends.about.com/od/errata/a/two-moons.htm

So all this happened in 2003 but the email just kept circulating till 2010? Haha. pft. internet. can be so informative and yet full of rubbish at the same time.

Are people allergic to goody 2-shoes?

2010-08-16T16:19:00.010+08:00

I really wish I can be on that boat even though I don't like the sea. its weird i know. i love beaches but not the sea. watching all those Jaws movies when i was younger certainly impacted me in some undesirable way. now every time i go for a vacation on a beach i would ask my mum "do they have sharks here?". and even if she answers no, i would STILL not go swimming in the sea because there might be other creepy, weird-looking dangerous undersea creatures lurking out there. this is how i fear the sea, by forming unreasonable illusions of it.

I don't know if the sun is setting, rising or neither in this picture but i love sunsets. generally because of the twilight sky. the moment when everything is a shade of orange, red and purple, it's breathtaking. though it never lasts for more than a few minutes, its fleeting moment is what makes people long for it. don't we all want to bask in the afterglow every single day? i know i do. but I guess if life is always that simple and easy, it would be harder to appreciate the peace, that comes with it every once in a while.

p.s. won't you whisper in my ear? let me know, it's alright.

Love before being Loved.

2010-08-12T22:45:00.022+08:00

You set it again, my hearts in motion ♫~. . . Okay seriously I gotta stop listening to that song. I've always got this thing where I like a song so much I just have to listen to it on repeat, again and again, until I get sick of it. so yea I'm pretty sure I'm beginning to get sick of that song now. And I-I-I'm in love ♪. .Actually I'm really not but I love how Katherine sings that part. Okayla I'll stop with the song cause seriously beginning to have the jelak feeling ady.

Anyways I saw this picture the other day on one of my favourite websites.

Gosh this person sure sounds pessimistic. but if this is what the person is really going through then I feel sad for him or her! it's tough enough to live in a world with ~~global warming. OMGOSH THE HEAT TODAY.~~ so many different types of people and not to mention stressors. i can't imagine living in a world where none of the people around you, actually care for you. actually I can but that was a long time ago. like last year. haha. kidding. I'm glad that I don't have to go through such experiences and I thank God for it. and even if I do have to go through them (though I still rather NOT), I'm glad that I would still be able to turn to Him.

I will never leave you nor forsake you. Hebrews 13:5

p.s. Apparently there'll be meteor showers tonight?

Sometimes the snow comes down in June, Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon

2010-08-07T18:58:00.015+08:00

I know how everyone say they live for the moment, but I think I need to live in the moment. Replaying in my head how it ought to have went, wouldn't change anything.

Omgosh Narnia! Peter looked soo cuteee. He gets better and better looking each time =D. I am so looking forward to watching this!

And this one looks so friggin cool! Alice looks very different now, with black hair and all. she looks like some ninja but wat the heck the effects still kick butt =D

SCRATCH THAT. The ninja wasn't Alice after all hahaha. This trailer is even cooler =D

There must be something more, do you know what we're fighting for?

2010-08-03T20:57:00.006+08:00

Ijok (Pronounced as I-Chok). I don't think there's much I can say about the place. besides it being boring with creepy crawlies EVERYWHERE *shudders* and red ants. But because it's set in a natural environment, there are some things worth mentioning=)

For some reason, the leaves and the fruits are burnt. Way to preserve the nature.

And the water. OMGOSH. did u notice the brown-ness? =D. it IS a pond so...

But hey I thought this can be used to clean the water or something? (I don't know why I'm posting pictures of dirty water). but nevermind my two favourite pictures are coming up =D

Isn't he/she cute!! I honestly think it's the cutest goat I've ever seen =D. I wish I can pet it haha but apparently goats are shy animals .

And this picture I like cause the water effect made it look like there's mist in the background. The plants are actually by the pond. I guess N95 ain't so bad after all =D

p.s. there were many things I wanted to say but I can't seem to remember em' =p

p.s. will NEVER skip 365 for own personal selfish reasons ever again.

The voice that calmed the sea, would calm the storm in me

2010-07-30T13:02:00.005+08:00

Sun Mei sent me an email with these cartoons. God knows how long the email sat unread in my inbox =p but better late than never right.

If there's one thing I learnt this week. It's we can't please everyone. I do feel bad but I'm only just 1 person. I wish I can split my attention but there's only so much I can do =(

p.s. Next post: pictures I took in Ijok!

A smile a day keeps the doctor away

2010-07-28T18:38:00.011+08:00

I ❤ American Idol. I'm into this show lately. Sometimes I wonder why in the world StarWorld would want to repeat these reality TV shows when the hype is already over. Then it hit me. Because of suckers like me who happen to love Simon Cowell's criticisms, the contestants' song choices and their amazing powerhouse vocals (some of them anyway).

Contrary to popular belief that the first runner-up would be more successful than the winner, aka David Archuleta vs David Cook (ok so I only made my deductions from that one year), I think Kris Allen and Adam Lambert is pretty equal =D. Adam Lambert certainly won in terms of publicity though (from being gay to kissing Ke$ha, bla bla bla).

I was no fan of Kris before this but I think I'm beginning to like him a bit more. gotta liveee like we're dying ♫. I can't wait for Lee Dwyze and Crystal Bowersox (hope I got her name right) 's new singles. I wonder who's gonna be the bigger hit. I'm personally rooting for Lee though!

Owh owh and I'm seriously into America's and Australia's Next Top Model too. Now I know why it's still going strong despite the many seasons. The models' photos are so pretty and you get to see the drama between the girls. The most interesting thing though is that some of the girls there aren't even considered pretty but they look gorgeous in pictures!

All Day - Hillsong

2010-07-26T23:26:00.004+08:00

Suddenly this came to mind "this must have been what she felt like"

Let's hope it's not the hormones talking this time. Yes please.

Whaddya want from me?

2010-07-25T22:55:00.006+08:00

New blogskin!!

2010-07-23T21:36:00.005+08:00

Finally after procrastinating for a gazillion years and changing my mind a hundred times, I've finally changed the template =D. I'm getting a little crazy on my obsession with Underworld (clearly) haha. But I'm sure it won't be here for long. I found out today that changing the background is actually quite easy peasy. But I think I went a little crazy with the pink as well..

Redang

2010-07-19T00:39:00.015+08:00

One of God's most wonderful creation is this pretty little island in Terengganu. It matters not I nearly ~~died~~ vomitted in the boat, the moment I saw those pretty little fishies under the sea, I knew it was worth it. Having less than 4 hours of sleep really got to me though. I can't functionla without at least 8 hours of sleep (exam times are an exception), so the first day was quite horrible lol.

I wrote this post under a blanket of stars at the beach. It was really pretty =). But pity the stars were not as clear and brilliant as the one in Cameron, due to the bright lights surrounding the beach area. Not only that, but the sounds of the waves here are constantly interrupted by people's voices and the blaring music coming from Laguna resort. another shortcoming for those wanting peace and quietness...aka me.

I wanted to bring this home la.. but dad said I can't unless I'm cool with being arrested.

The sun is blazing hot omgosh.

There was this band at summer point, they're really good for a local unsigned band -the girl and the guy sitting on the far right especially!

It's really quite a nice place overall. Maybe Pulau Perhentian or Tioman would be less commercialized, noisy and crowded?

HAHAHA yes this is one peculiar log =x. I feel disgusted but couldn't help taking a picture of it.

Either redang is a very safe place, or it doesn't work that the owner would just leave it there.

Summary: the island is gorgeous but the environment was unpleasant. 6.5/10 la for this trip.

I'm gonna soak up the sunnn

2010-07-07T09:55:00.010+08:00

I lovee my holidayss eventhough I feel crappy due to hormones and period.

Redang better be good =D

p.s. you'll be a star in somebody else's sky =).

Freedom 101

2010-06-30T13:31:00.003+08:00

-This is gonna be a short one.-

Omgoshhh exams are finally overrr I can't believe it man. Can't believe it took so long for this day to come. Ughh exam for 3 weeks is hell. It's like reliving SPM all over again. So not fun. But anywayyyss it's finally done and I can finally have my holiday =DD. So many things to do so little time! I only have like 2 and half weeks of holiday but wat the heck, will try to relax to the max before my dreadful second semester starts =D.

p.s. I can finally sleep tonight.

p.s.s. I used to be in love with SailorMoon

Senses

2010-06-21T10:39:00.011+08:00

The way your senses reacts to the environment is kinda amazing. I was sitting in the living room the other day reading when I heard a weird tinkling music of some sort. I thought it was coming from my laptop in the dining hall but figured it couldn't be since the music wasn't on. So then I thought it came from the construction work outside but then I realized the sound definitely came from inside the house. It was soft at first so I wanted to just ignore it. But then it got louder and louder and soon became the only thing that I could hear.

So curiosity got the best of me and I started following the "music". I walked all the way to the kitchen only to find that the sound came from the tap (anti-climax betul!). It wasn't turned off properly so the tap water was dripping and the drops of water that hit the side of the plate caused the "tinkling" sound.

Talk about heightened senses. I kinda stared at the tap for awhile. The noise I assumed came from the construction site outside turned out to be reverberated sounds of drops of water.

And now I'm reminded of Psychology (wow wee -.-). Do we feel sad because we cry? or do we feel sad so we cry? Is it James-Lange or Cannon-Bard's theory? And why am I talking about Psychology when I'm suppose to be burrying myself behind Business' books? I know why. Too free =D. As usual haha. Nevermind, I'll try to make the next post on Business (mainly on how I'm suffering for it =p)

I really am =/

Who knows how He'll get a hold of us
Get our attention to prove He is enough
He'll do and He'll use
Whatever He wants to
To tell us "I love you"

-Mandisa

The heart is a funny story.

2010-06-10T21:59:00.004+08:00

I said I wouldn't do it but I did it anyway.
O foolish heart, you need a wall okay =)

I know there's been a lack of updates haha. Not cause of exams though. I guess I'm just lost for words =D

Even when I don't deserve it

2010-06-02T18:35:00.008+08:00

It's been more than 10 days since I last blogged and I didn't even noticed it. how time flies =D. I guess the highlight of the events that have happened over the past few days were centered on, none other than my laptop. To sum it all up, I've got a new laptop exactly a week after destroying (accidentally) the old one. could have gotten it earlier too if the guy fixing my lappy knew the lappy has problems with its motherboard, BEFORE adding in all the new softwares and hardwares.

But hey am not complaining at all. I'm really really thankful to have a new one! God is awesome yea =). What was merely a frustrated thought of how slow my laptop was, He heard me anyways, and gave me something completely new! something I would have never dared asked for too (my old laptop was only 2 years old!). Though I really miss some of the functions and features of the old laptop (especially the big screen), I'm already beginning to ❤ this new one =D.

Everything that has happened; the good and the bad, it was all in His control. I guess I was just too impatient and, as usual, worrying too much about every little single thing to not see it. We know He will provide us with the best, but how many can fully trust Him to do so? I have to work on having childlike faith in Him =)

His ways are higher
His ways are better
Though sometimes strange
What could be stranger
Than God in a manger
- Mandisa

It's a 2-way thing baby

2010-05-20T13:06:00.033+08:00

What would uni be without you ppl I wonder =)

Recently I've came to realize the importance of having a two-way communication between friends and family. I guess I was unwillingly 'inspired' by some people I know. haha. With them I feel like I'm the only one trying to re-connect, and salvage any friendship that might have been there. And it has proven really hard over the years, when people take things for granted.

I think friendship is like a plant. No matter how healthy the plant is, without nurturing it will eventually wilt and die. And it won't be easy trying to revive a dead plant.

When its always a one-way thing, it just goes to show that the person couldn't even be bothered to spend 5 seconds of their time, to say a simple "Hello".

Well in case you haven't noticed,

It takes two to tango =)

Friendship doesn't work by holding on to air.

p.s. YAYYYY! Finally have a bible again!! Thanks mum =DDD so happy omgoshh

Reasons why I love music.

2010-05-16T23:43:00.010+08:00

Music means a lot to me. Close friends would know that I'm a sucker for musical instruments.. (I wanna learn every single one there is on earth!!). Don't really know the exact reason why.. but I've came up with a few reasons y I love music. Only 5 6 for now but there'll be more in the future =D

1. It sings of words that I will never be able to express.

2. When they're inspirational, they can bring you to tears =)

3. It reminds me of the important people in my life =))

4. Because those silly emo songs are too meaningful!

5. They remind you of the good, the bad, and life itself.

6. Every song tells its own story. Its like a storybook but shorter =D

I hope there won't be a lot of songs singing about their 'disco stick' in the future. Cause I think I did rather listen to silence than listen to meaningless songs lol.

And how can I stand here with You, and not be moved by You?

I think I need a little more push

2010-05-16T20:29:00.007+08:00

If only I have more courage. Then maybe it wouldn't be so hard. So ding dong bell la you haha.

p.s. If there were more dreamers, life would be more interesting =)

I'm now officially a fan.

2010-05-13T13:09:00.003+08:00

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah.

To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.

But I think both Lee and Seal were equally awesome with this song =D

For eternity

2010-05-12T17:32:00.005+08:00

But still..

By the man who died on the cross =)

p.s. I never told you.

Accident AGAIN!

2010-05-08T21:31:00.006+08:00

And I know I still can't use bad words to describe that stupid truck driver. My car got hit today. That idiot driver swerved into MY LANE while turning at a traffic light. I slammed on my brakes when I saw him coming so close and honked at him, but he just kept going =.=. And then the vehicle's back hit the front of my car. What's worse is that he didn't even bother to STOP after he hit me. I couldn't go after him to jot down the company number (written at the back) and the car plate in time cause it was a red light =.=.

It's just been 3 days since the last one. Give me a break man.. irresponsible douche-bag.

Stuff happens.

2010-05-05T18:36:00.014+08:00

It hasn't been THAT long, but Blogspot has forgotten bout me already, direct me to the login page haha. The reason for the long delay is well..

1. ASS-ignments =).
2. Lazy.
3. Don't know what to blog about.

To be honest I did have some stuff that I would really like to blog aboutla. There were times where I've posted them up but then..er took them down after 5 minutes =D haha. Reason too emo-la some of them =p. I don't wanna scare people away.

Anyways today got something quite 'interesting' to talk about lol. I erm ter-touch somebody's car while turning a junction. It was bad judgement on my part lar. So anyways we stopped at a nearby petrol station. And the first impression she gave me was "what's your problem?". She looked like she was about to snap at me. Then I guess after she looked at her car, realized that it was just a scratch at the front, cooled down lol.

So she asked for my phone number and all that, checked my car plate number and stuff. Guess she was afraid her dad might wanna claim insurance or call me to pay, I don't knowla lol. Or maybe she hasn't got into any accidents before (was a p-driver), cause according to my mum, those kinda scratches are really minor and takkan she want me to change her whole car front also right.

Plus she said I banged her, which actually sounded wrong.. cause I merely went on my own lane, just that I didn't know her car head was that close to my side. Yes, it was my back car door that had scratched her car front =.=. And it all happened because I thought there were enough space for my tiny car haha.

But overall she was quite nice. Said she didn't want to claim any charges but she had to go through her dad first. She called back after I reached home, saying that it's okay, no claims and whatnot. Oh wow, it's been a long time since I've had such a lengthy post =D. Oh and my car is okay haha. after I polished it, it looks good as new. with just a very fine scratch line towards the tyre. And so this ends the very lengthy post =).

p.s. celaka betul, I usually don't use that road on a Wednesday =.=.

p.s.s I'll learn to love my car more from now on haha.

Another funny moment hahaha.

2010-04-30T02:14:00.003+08:00

A ❤ said (01:59):
*jahah nites bobo
*eh all the best 2moro=)
B said (01:59):
*haha =)
*thank u momo
*u too nites ya = )
B said (02:00):
*sweeter dreams
*=D
A ❤ said (02:00):
*hahha
B says (02:00):
*nites =)
*wait
*i said nights right?
A ❤ says (02:00):
*LOL
B says (02:00):
*oh ya i did
*kay nights =D
*=P
A ❤ says (02:00):
*hahahha
B says (02:00):
*=p
A ❤ says (02:00):
*3rd time la
*aduiii
*better go slp
B says (02:01):
*ohh sorry sorry
*nights=
*=D
*hahahahah
A ❤ says (02:01):
*4th time LOL

p.s. my blog is more alive than yours la bobo =p

2010-04-29T19:30:00.004+08:00

Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark,
That's when I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I..I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness, I see the truth.
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon.
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone.

Thank You God =)

p.s. Today was fun!

p.s.s. NOOOO HOW CAN SIOBHAN BE OUT! SUCKS!

God help me.

2010-04-29T10:47:00.005+08:00

Sometimes talking to her makes me wanna pull my hair out. It's like she talks without thinking first sometimes. And she starts talking gibberish and totally out of the point and I don't know what the heck she's trying to say. It's so weird! Omgosh..tak tahan man lol. I think I better just stick to only talking to God at home or even the four walls is better sometimes lol.

p.s. Goodbye.

Words of Wisdom from Taylor!

2010-04-28T00:10:00.003+08:00

Who knew Taylor could speak such brilliant words=p.

Today a friend invited me to join their club's white water rafting thingy..or something along those lines haha. He said they're gonna stay overnight at the place. And I said "But I don't have a sleeping bag..". So he said.. "it's okay can sleep on the grass and look at the stars at night, it's awesome".

Actually that wasn't such a bad idea. Sleeping on the grass is a big no-no lar (who knows what might crawl up my shirt wei -.-), but then the stars part sounds awesome =). I just might have accepted his invitation if it didn't clash with Church.

People deserve better. That's why.

2010-04-25T22:01:00.004+08:00

If you don't want it to go anywhere, the best thing you can do is to let go.

If You Could See Me Now

2010-04-23T17:32:00.010+08:00

Cecelia Ahern is such a good author! But this book is a bit too sad ady laa.

"She began to sob. Quiet whimpers at first that soon exited her mouth as pain-filled wails from the depths of her heart. She could hear her own hurt. Each tear was a call for help that had never been answered before, and that she didn’t expect to be answered now. And that made her cry even more."

Love.. “emotions that she felt she was never given enough of, to be able to share.”

I guess R. L. Stine is no more my favourite hahah. Cecelia would be at par with Stephenie Meyer =D.

p.s. Everybody's gotta learn to be smart =D

The Rain

2010-04-20T18:29:00.012+08:00

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late.

He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now. I was surprised, and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?' He smiled as he patted my hand and said, 'She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is.'

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, 'That is the kind of love I want in my life.'

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.

'Life isn't about how to survive the storm, But how to dance in the rain.'

-Taken from email.